Its no secret that the dating and courtship part of our relationship was one of ups and downs and lots of heartache. There were more times than I care to admit that I wondered if we would make it. For years I did what I thought was best, and held on as tight as I could to a relationship that at the time was moving no where. And I will never forget one day after bible study standing in the parking lot with my aunt Joni and bible study leader Becki, and crying tears of relief - knowing that I couldn't hold on any longer. I had to let go, and give it all to God. By holding on so tightly I was acting like I had control over something that only God had control of. That was one of the scariest moments of my life, because sometimes when you surrender control to God, the outcome is much different than what you were hoping for... always better - but often different. That day I surrenedered it all and just began to pray that God would bring a man into my life that would walk in faith with me (desperately hoping that the man God had in mind was Dustin). I never knew where Dustin would end in his life of faith, and I never wanted to be one that pushed him towards Christ. I knew that it was a personal decision for him, and only him. It had to be something he would seek on his own. It was nothing I could ever make him do. Almost two years later I married Dustin, a completely different person than the man I dated... he had grown into an amazing man of faith!! The transformation in his life and in our relationship has been incredible to say the very least. God gave me so much more than I could have ever hoped for. Strangely enough - the reason that Dustin became so strong in his walk of faith had nothing to do with me and had everything to do with another person in Dustins life completely seperate of me or my family. It is an incredible testimony that only Dustin can share.
Lately, this song has been playing on Air1, the radio station I listen to. I love it because I know the story of why it was written (the video below explains), and I remember at one time praying for the same thing. And today I am married to a man who is leading me to Christ in everything I do. He is an incredible support and partner!! When I surrendered it all to God almost two years ago, I never would have imagined that this would be my life today. It is so much better than anything I hoped for or thought was possible.
The Story Behind "Lead Me" - Sanctus Real from BrightBulb Entertainment on Vimeo.
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